Another Day
Yesterday was our anniversary and we went out for sushi. I am not a fish person, but I like shrimp, crab, lobster, so I just had some California rolls and some tempora. We had fun. We tried something different and enjoyed ourselves.
My wife is pretty sad over our dog's toe loss. Our dog had to stay overnight at the vet because it was worse than we all expected. She is flying high on morphine, so she isn't in pain right now. We will pick her up later and we will have to bring her in every few days to get her dressings changed.
I am not sure what to do about the whole gym thing. I have to lose some weight for my back. It may not solve my pain problem, but it couldn't hurt for my physical health. The thing is, I get home everyday from work and I hurt. I have to lay down, or I feel like I am just going to burst with pain. How can I go to the gym and workout when I can barely move. I am kind of mad at the doctor because of the cost of treatment. The last two shots cost me $1300 and that was after insurance covered 80%. How am I supposed to get any care when I can't afford it? I have been racking my brain trying to figure out how to solve this. Should I take up yoga, or Marshall arts, or some movement based exercised, or do I just work on muscles of my upper and lower body and try to strengthen what I have. I don't like drugs, but now I am forced to take pain meds to bring down the pain so I can work or even get out of bed. This shit just sucks.
Today is a Reiju day so I will focus in and pick out any available energy sent out by my Reiki peers and hope that it helps.
My wife will find out if she gets the job with the university today. I spend a lot of time trying to send out positive thoughts to counter her negativity. She has been hurt so many times that she almost feels defeated before she even goes after the job. I sort of understand her mood, but she has to believe she is going to get the job so that everything will fall into place. I want her to be happy and because she isn't it, upsets me. I don't know how I can help her. I will just keep trying to help.
Today I make myself renewed
Believe, rebuild, resolve, restore
Make a peace inside that is new
Find a place that is really true
Mold a form to hold much more
Create myself within a view
So that I can be again
Complete
Whole
One
A vision within and without
A place that is my temple
My santuary
My Self
My wife is pretty sad over our dog's toe loss. Our dog had to stay overnight at the vet because it was worse than we all expected. She is flying high on morphine, so she isn't in pain right now. We will pick her up later and we will have to bring her in every few days to get her dressings changed.
I am not sure what to do about the whole gym thing. I have to lose some weight for my back. It may not solve my pain problem, but it couldn't hurt for my physical health. The thing is, I get home everyday from work and I hurt. I have to lay down, or I feel like I am just going to burst with pain. How can I go to the gym and workout when I can barely move. I am kind of mad at the doctor because of the cost of treatment. The last two shots cost me $1300 and that was after insurance covered 80%. How am I supposed to get any care when I can't afford it? I have been racking my brain trying to figure out how to solve this. Should I take up yoga, or Marshall arts, or some movement based exercised, or do I just work on muscles of my upper and lower body and try to strengthen what I have. I don't like drugs, but now I am forced to take pain meds to bring down the pain so I can work or even get out of bed. This shit just sucks.
Today is a Reiju day so I will focus in and pick out any available energy sent out by my Reiki peers and hope that it helps.
My wife will find out if she gets the job with the university today. I spend a lot of time trying to send out positive thoughts to counter her negativity. She has been hurt so many times that she almost feels defeated before she even goes after the job. I sort of understand her mood, but she has to believe she is going to get the job so that everything will fall into place. I want her to be happy and because she isn't it, upsets me. I don't know how I can help her. I will just keep trying to help.
Today I make myself renewed
Believe, rebuild, resolve, restore
Make a peace inside that is new
Find a place that is really true
Mold a form to hold much more
Create myself within a view
So that I can be again
Complete
Whole
One
A vision within and without
A place that is my temple
My santuary
My Self
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