Decisions

There are many choices in life and so far I have not made many of them. Most of the time things sort of fall into place and the ride has been pretty bumpy. I have not had to really choose work, I didn't have many options. School came and went without much choice. I have not had that many job assignments that I had a choice about. I did make the choice to run PPD. But now I seem to come to another cross road where I actually get to make a choice, and I of course don't know what I want to do. I have no follow through. I get up to a brick wall and sit down rather than find a way around it. I think that is what separates the great opportunities from the existence that we call life. I have no seize the moment type of life. I get up, go to work, fill in the time, get off of work and do what I need to do until bed. With my pain, I don't really have too many options anymore about what to do after work. I have to lay down. I am so wishy washy these days. I need to find my voice and listen to it.

Open up your heart and sing,
Find the answers to most anything,
Listen for the bells to ring,
Don't let life pass you by.
In the air there is a feeling there,
A surge of thought behind a cold hard stare,
Mixing voices that are not there,
Hold on and give it a try.
Listen to your hearts desire,
Pit of emotion on an open fire,
Speak from personal truth and not a liar,
Live a life that forces you to try.
Think deep and wonder why,
Hear your heart at night,
For it is probably right,
Look deep with all of your sight,
and live.