A new day

I was asked by the Toteg Tribal council to create a memorial service and administer it online. How do you honor someone this meaningful to me and to many others and be as inclusive as possible? I don't want to miss anything. I wish I new flash. I would create a movie or program that could be viewed by everyone. Perhaps I could create a slideshow or something.

To help me I created a couple of pictures that memorialized Joe. One was symbolic and the other was all of the photos that I could find. They help some, but coming up with a ritual is personally a difficult task. It is an online ritual and memorial service. I want to do a good job.

I was also asked to be the first Treasurer of the Toteg Tribal council. I have to go mess with the bank again and get another checking account. At least I know what to do, I did it for PPD.

My back still hurts and the next step is to see an orthopedic surgeon. I wanted things to get better so I wouldn't have to see one. It will be expensive and it will still hurt like crazy. I just get frustrated because I am severely limited in what I can do on a daily basis. It hurts to get dressed in the morning. I feel like a cry baby because people go through life with much bigger problems than what I have got, but my whole life will have to change if I don't get this fixed. I can't even mow the freak'n grass. How am I supposed to keep a house when I am stuck in bed?

Time to get refocused.

When the wall come closing in
I reach out to take hold
Relying on my spirit
To teach me this broken road
Balance in my sacred space
Begins within me
Change from harmful attitudes
Flying and being free
Today I journey to a new found home
Step aside and take rest
Answers are not always clear
It takes patience and resolve
To hear and obey
The visions come unannounced
The pathway makes itself known
Hold on tight and be at ease
Tomorrow brings a new day