what's going on

I am going to go see a doctor today about my mental health. There could be one of four things going on with me. I could be suffering from adult ADD, clinical depression, low testosterone, or simply my energy centers are out of wack and still suffering from tramatic stress from various accidents. I will go see the head doctor today and also try to set up a session with a shaman I know ASAP. In a couple of weeks I have a consult with an orthopedic surgeon to take a look at my back. I am starting to have pain in my other leg, which never really occured before, and the pain get pretty intense at times. Sometimes I feel like a real wimp because many people suffer through physical pain. I push it as far as I can and perhaps that is why I am not getting any better.

Taking a step in the right direction
Mixing the spell through contemplation
Digging deep with inner motivation
Looking around with expectation
Helping my spirit shine
Humbled by sense of time
Reaching out and making simple mistakes
Follow through with focus clear
Experience dances near
One by one no matter how long it will take
Waiting
Antisipating
Letting go and understanding
Simplicity brings out the hidden truth
Innocence of forgotten youth
Here I go to live another day
Again