Another Friday

Things have been crazy the last week. I still don't know exactly when my surgery will be, I keep calling and leaving messages with scheduling, but they have not returned my phone calls. By the time I am done with work my pain level is so high I can barely stand to make dinner much less do anything else. I take the pain meds around seven and they take a little while to kick in, but when they do, my pain level reduces and it is not so dissabling. But I can not function much less drive anywhere. I am flying higher than a kite come 9pm. The drugs seem to work until morning so I at least get to sleep for 6 or 7 hours. If I took the drugs any later, I would not be able to get up and go to work. This sucks because I am not able to go out and visit with anyone. I am home bound. I hope that my friends understand that I am just trying to deal with everything and not leave them high and dry.

Today is the first day that I am back in the office with access to email and the internet. I have lots of people to talk to and catch up with.

I am excited about next weekend. Las Vegas Pagan Pride Day will be lots of fun. I really hope that people come and enjoy themselves. Because I have been unable to go out, I have had to do a lot of last minute coordinating my self. I cancelled a meeting on monday because the only people that were able to come were people that have already done their duties and I needed to talk with the ones who couldn't be there. I didn't want to waste people's time when they have already done so much. I had to make a bunch of phone calls, but I think I caught everyone. The trick now is figuring out decorations and getting all the signs completed. I sent an email out to everyone with a email blurb about LVPPD. I asked them to send it around, I hope they do.

I had to find someone to help me around the house and help with the lawn. I simply can not clean and take care of the house. With my wife so busy and stressed about work, I had to have help. I hope the person will come and do what I need. I am paying and hopefully it is worth it. She was recommended by someone I know, I haven't had time to find help, so if it doesn't work out I am just SOL. The biggest problem is the back yard. She says that she will mow and do yard work, but the grass is really high, and the is dog mines all over that have to be picked up. I will try and do some of it if I can in the morning before she get there, but I can only do so much. I wish I knew some more people that would like to earn some extra money.

Shoulder the load of a dreamers heart,
Mix in the love where it's found,
Holding the weight of opinions unknown,
No time to sit and take a break.
Relief from the heat of the battle,
Comes in the form of a hug,
Beyond the belief,
Of a journey gone by,
Feelings removed by a theif.
Stare in the eyes of resolution,
Calm down and go with the flow,
Stress of the day,
All flies away,
When the center is found again.
Strait from the heart,
Love for one and all,
Giving from me,
Is all I can be,
Is it enough or will I fall short?