I sit back this morning

Thinking of places that I’ve been

Remembering the struggles at times

The cravings that would never end

Then I remember you

How you touched my heart

Guiding me along the way

Just by being who you are

Depression, anxiety, the urge to go back

Missing a piece of me

Learning from the mistakes

Finding where I’m at

Taking life day by day

Living just to be

I can’t go back to where I’ve been

I have come way too far

One step at a time

No matter what

Today I’m alive and doing well

Right now I am doing fine

Today marks 47 months smoke free. At almost 4 years it is a new world that I look at. You don’t think about all that much, the times I do it is the constant and habit I miss not the smoke, smell and taste. I go into the Casinos when people visit and they reek of smoke. I come home and my cloths and hair smell. I just bought a new car and it is nice knowing that no one has smoked in it.

I found out that I have 3 months to make a lifestyle change or I will be diagnosed with diabetes. I am in the pre-stages. It runs in my family, so I have to fight now before I am too late. It will be hard, but I will do it. I will treat it like my smoking quit and take it one day at a time and make the choices I need to make in order to see the outcome the way I want it to be.

Blessings to you all.

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On the quitnet forum someone asked about spirit and religion, I was feeling odd this morning, so I wrote......

The spirit is for you, religion is for the masses. Finding your center and balance can be a difficult one, but very do-able.

find some wonderful poems

take a slow walk

look around at the world through different eyes

you may find your not so far off

the birds sing a tune

what do they say

the wind blow across the land

have you felt it on your face

discovering a world full of life

you are on your way

can you quantify your feelings

when you see a child at play

when a dog gives you unconditional love

just for not going away

experience and explore

discover the you in all

finding pleasure in a small kiss

or walking through a store

where are you

what do you want

how are you today

check in with your spirit now

look at life in a brand new way

sorry, that just kind of came out. I am celebrating 47 months today and so far everything feels like a musical....lol.

But seriously, go sit in on a meditation, or go explore one of the hidden communities that are in your city. There are more beliefs out there than you think. Talk with them and have fun exploring.

Blessings in harmony,

Peter