wonderment on a bad day

I sit alone and wonder why.
What can I do besides watch the days go by?
Work takes up most of my time,
But life is more than just making a dime.
Is this the life I am to lead?
Just waiting for the next assignment to come to me.
I know that I support more than my family.
I know the importance of the work that I do.
But, my intrests seem to fade away,
My ecploration of life is no longer in clear view.
I have all of these ideas,
Pictures in my head,
Creation of beauty
Building more, inventingm, supplying creativity.
But I am just a fool and only sit and wonder
Big ideas that really go no where.
Why can't I just shut up about it,
I don't take steps, I am insecure.
This is a land of posible dreams.
I have to sit an maintain my means.
Life can turn from safe to worse
In the blink of an eye
So I do nothing with what little time I have.
Mentally down, drained and broken
Waiting for nothing and getting nothing in return.

I don't want to be this passer by
I don't want to just sit and wonder why
The life I want can be more than just a dream
I have the power, I have the way and means
Taking control, making the moves
Building a road, using all my tools
Open my eyes and see the world
Open my voice and let it all unfurl
Creating life and moving on
I have the power, create desire, will it to be done