First Harvest

Eyes awaken to warmth and illumination,
Full and fresh, feeling revived and aware,
Sparked from the seed, alive with expectation,
Nourished, replenished, potential made clear,
From the air we breathe in and refresh our spirit,
From the water we cleanse and refresh our soul,
In the fire we purify and shine through the darkness,
In the rich earth we grow and balance our whole,
Father the Sun that shines bright in the heavens,
Mother the Earth alive dancing in the flow,
Together we live in a sacred balance,
Divine in the grove our heart center known.
Give rise to the power that we have been given,
Present and focused, beyond all that’s shown.

Awake in the garden of life spread before us,
The Sun touches all with a kiss pure in light,
Fuel for our lives, full of a song’s daily chorus,
We live in the presence even at night,
The reflection of all connected and shining,
Abundance made clear, Father Sun keep shining bright.


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This is the second time I am writing this portion of the blog. The first portion was erased when I went to go spell check. Fogive the misspellings, I don't want to type everything out again, I will probably leave some stuff out anyway.

This is a special time of year for me. Yesterday was my wedding anniversary, ten years, tommorrow is my grandparent's, I think 55. My sister's birthday is in a few days and it was a special present for me when she was born when I was a kid, I love her a lot. I quit smoking 4 years ago, we got our dog ten years ago after our wedding. It is also the dark birthday of Joseph. He died a year ago this week and was born into is next phase of being.

My blood sugar has been fairly steady during the day, as long as I stay away from extra sweets and processed foods. It has been strange for me though because I wake up with high sugar levels, it must be all of those sweet dreams I have. I am hoping to change my metabolism and loose some weight or at least replace some fat with muscle. I think I will feel better and if I can change things up, then I may not have to be on medications.

Update

There is a lot going on right now.
Last night I couldn't sleep. I woke at 3am and just laid there and went over all of the stuff that has to be done for PPD and I couldn't get it out of my head. I tried thinking about other stuff, but I still couldn't sleep. Perhaps it was nerves about my sonagram this morning. I drifted off for a short period and found myself in one of my flying dreams that I haven't had in a long time. When I was a kid it was a regular occurance, I could just lift up my feet and go, usually I had a hat on that I would grab a hold of. This dream was like I was swimming feet first in the air. I knew I was dreaming so I controlled my flying. It was interactive. In my dream I said, this is a dream so I can control this. I probably missed out on any messages or information from my dream because I was busy flying around hallways. I was starting to get pretty good when my alarm woke me.

It was fun having my cousins and aunt and uncle over for the 4th. I miss the family sometimes, but am still happy out here in Vegas. We did lots of things, went to the Chili Peppers and Weezer concert, went swimming, went to the sharks reef, showed them around Vegas, ate out, saw Penn and Teller, BBQed and played games. It made for a busy weekend, but well worth it.

Open dreams
Let the days go by
Whipering
Get up and fly
Sharing heart felt love
Blessings from above
Finding truth
Acepting why
Beginnings
Centered Strength
Focus brand new
I love you