Bear's Blurbs

Thursday, December 30, 2004

Simply overwhelming

Christmas and the New Year are so hectic right now. Yesterday we spent the day getting rid of over 110 gallons of water from our living room. The inspector should be coming tomorrow to tell us exactly what happened. Then we have to fix it.

Got blessed by a Tibetan monk
Attended an OTO mass
Attended DMC Yule
Went out to dinner for Xmas eve
Opened presents from family
Ordered a new violin bow and strings
Ordered an exercise ball and bands
Supposed to fly to Colorado on short notice, living room flood caused me to screw over somebody at work and send them
Back hurts from bending, lifting and twisting
I need a drink!!!!

In a few weeks, I will send out the call for help for Pagan Pride 2005. I have to put together the committees that I want to run things. Basically list out all the aspects, see if anyone wants to take it and run.


Thursday, December 16, 2004

Learning from Nature

This is my topic tonight for tonight's Las Vegas Pagan Information Exchange. There is so much more to say, but I don't want to bore them. I want to do a group meditation and just talk. I will try to start with this and then hopefully we will break free from it.

Learning from Nature

Our Awareness of Nature

Nature is a non-verbal reality except for humanity. When we describe something in nature we use our abilities to share our perception. The problem is that in describing it, we are limited and many times disconnect from it. We lose the wholeness of it because of our limits. We often get into short cuts with our relationship to the natural world. We separate our awareness from the world around us. We lose interest, or things become so common place that we take things for granted. We go through motions that we have learned to work. We drive or walk around and only see things that catch our eye or have specific interest to us. Think for a minute that nature is like the words on this page. Most of the time we just speed read right though what is in front of use. We look at the ideas and try and comprehend what we are reading. That is fine for the most part, but more and more the words disappear, the letters are pressed together. We know them and the individual letters are not important to us anymore. As a child or someone learning to read, each letter and sound was a discovery to us. We were delighted in our ABC’s. We took a step in our development. Our awareness changed and more of the world was opened to us. Letters formed words, words formed sentences, and ideas could be shared in more than one form.

Let us take some time and open the awareness to the world around us.

We really have not lost our connections to nature. It affects us every day. It shapes us and works to live a very active life. When you stop and look at the world around us you can see how active it really is. The wind blows, the ants search for food, trees soak in the sun, flowers deliver their intoxicating aroma, even water and rocks are active parts of the world around us. Listen to the traffic, hear the ice-cream man, hear the conversations in the restaurants, and see the lights and the patterns unfold around you. Learn the vibrations of life.

We need to develop our base connections to nature. They are our foundation and base. If you don’t think they are, then hold your breathe for 10 minutes. Don’t drink or eat anything for a week. Nature sustains us. We are connected to our core. We can not forget it.

The thing about learning from nature is that we are so connected that nature can teach us things about ourselves.

Nature is the groundwork for which your path, your goals, your purpose derives itself. Take the time to interact with the nature around you to create a solid foundation so that you can take those leaps and bounds without stumbling.

Let’s take something that we see around us here in Las Vegas. Take the Palm tree. There are many different varieties. Some Palms are tall, some are short, and some have many trunks. Palm leaves are different as well; some have long fawns that go all the way to the trunk, others have leaves that look like a fern, some have a bunk that group together like a fan and have a stem that goes back to the base. Palms survive by absorbing what they need to survive. If they grow too many leaves, those leaves die. If you plant a group of them together they will grow away from each other so that they can all share in the sun. If you damage the lower part of the trunk or the main root, they will die. They have a shallow root system, is it because of the ground it lives in. That ground has to have a specific alkalinity. If it has too much acidity, it will die. How did the Palms get here? There is a debate of the origins of the first palm in the valley. There are stories about a traveler who planted them. There are also stories that there was a variety that was here already. The Native Americans of this area have mixed views of it. Some say their grandparents used them and there are paintings depicting them. Other want the Palms removed from native lands because a white man from Phoenix planted them. Can they tell us about ourselves and how we populated this area? How do they propagate? Some have flowers, some have roots that make new trees, and some grow fruit and have seeds.

Take a look at the other trees, flowers, bushes, cactus, weeds, and vegetation that are both naturally planted as well as planted with a specific purpose by humans. Why are they the height they are? What feeds them, waters them, lives in harmony with them? Why do flower have the smell and look they do? How do the plants survive and spread their seed?

You can look at animals, the species, their characteristics, their habits, how they adapt to different things.

Take a look at a rook and sit with it a while. How did it get to be the size it is now? Why did you choose that particular rock? How does it feel, are their any features to it? Is it one of many, it is by it self? How did the dirt get on it? If you move it, can you really ever put it back to where it was? Does it help keep the dirt from blowing away? Do insects have to go around it? Do they live under it? When it rains, does it change? Did you trip on it and then kick it or throw it? Does it resemble or remind you of anything?

There are so many questions that you could ask many different things. Being non-verbal you are only going to gain a certain amount of knowledge from it. It may teach you things in ways that you can not express.

We can move on to events and things that are larger than earth, plant, or animal. How about a sunset? Have you taken the time to feel the sun setting, or even rising for that matter? If you close your eyes during can you know when the sun will rise above the mountains or drop behind them? Temperature changes to your skin, sounds that change, are there any feelings that you get.

What season is it? There are many signs and signals that indicate the season. What is the phase of the moon? How busy is the strip right now? How busy will it be in the morning? How busy will it be for New Year’s Eve?

Many things affect us as we go through our daily lives. We see a funny bumper sticker, hear a song on the radio, listen to co-workers complain, sit and rub your family pet. Anything and everything has a connection to us. Even things that you may not have thought about can affect you. How can we describe our relationships and be mindful of our actions and reactions?

There are whole sections of science that are seeing the world in a different light. Some of it indigenous people have know for generations. We have learned from them and developed in a whole new direction only to come back to what they have already told us. People have known about medicine, the interaction with the land, the existence of other realities, the effects we have on our communities.

Quantum Mechanics and the relative theories

Co-creational science

Ecological Psychology

Energy Healing

The Natural Medicines

Scientists have noticed how connected we are with the world around us. We can use this to develop our relationships. Most of the physical sciences deal with the large physical world that is around use. We see the large actions and reactions and the doctor treats you for the symptoms. But when it comes to the small and very fast they lack the ability to become relative.

Quantum Mechanics, string theory, and science on the atomic level are showing us that actions, reactions, time, space, and dimension can all change and are changing in any given moment. Our will, our reality, our awareness can be more affecting than we have given credit to. If you throw a ball and bounce it off the wall, you observe and know that it will come back to you. You can do it the same way and you would expect each time it would return. But did you know that there is a possibility that it would go through the wall and keep going as if the wall wasn’t there. On a small scale, the possibility grows even greater. There is also the possibility that not only with the ball bounce back, but it will also keep going. There are experiments in quantum computing that show both can exist at the same time. The potential for future computers to have 3 states and not just 2 that current computing that traditional physics have developed will allow science to do computations that they currently can not do. Quantum Mechanics have changed the understanding of the atom.

Co-creational science is unique in that it uses nature as a partner in the experiment. Most of them are chemist who now sees that in order to create materials that both are solutions to a need, and are in balance with nature. They have made fertilizers and acrylics/plastics that are made of the same hydrocarbons, but are connected differently. They are forced into a form that creates an imbalance with nature. Nature doesn’t want it back and has a difficult time breaking it apart. Take a look at a landfill and you can see it. Many lifetimes will go by before a fix will be able to return it all into elements again. Co-creationist want what they do to take on a form that is in balance, so they consult nature in every aspect of the process. People can commune with the land and figure out what it can grow, where is the best places to plant. What the land needs in order to grow. Farmers have been doing it for a long time, but for scientist, it is something new and it even relieves a burden that they some have felt. Are you evolving, when you are creating something that could destroy the land that you live on? In waste-water treatment, there are active organisms or “bugs” that eat the waste that is being treated. They require a certain amount of waste and oxygen to live. It is a delicate balance. Too much oxygen and they reproduce too rapidly and they overeat and starve with the given amount of food. To little oxygen and they can not reproduce enough to eat the waste. The same goes for different wildlife preserves and forests. We have confined them to a specific space and so that limits the growth and density of the animals and vegetation.

Ecological Psychology studies people and their environment helping them adapt and balance. It looks beyond the standard medication and chemical treatments to balance a person and looks for other things to help or what things can be eliminated to balance a person.

Energy healing constitutes many practices. Basically a practitioner opens up their awareness and lets themselves become a channel for others so that energy and needs that are not being met can be helped. They can sometime sense needs and requirements by using their awareness. Some practices use the practitioner’s will or intent to make changes or remove blockages that are preventing changes from occurring. The brain, the acids in the body, the nervous system and chemical make up can do things that are sometimes unexplainable with our current understandings.

Natural Medicine practitioners are people that try and help by using natural means, herbs, needles, manipulation, etc. to bring about the natural healing processes of the body.

People around us and our connections to them

Do you see how we affect each other? Our moods, our reactions, our life makes an impact on others. It could be direct, it could be subtle. Our car breaking down can change our course as well as those around us and those connected to us. Smiling at someone can change them even if they don’t react right away.

Other things that affect us:

Family traditions

Our community, the physical, the spiritual, the connections

Techniques that can allow us to open our awareness:

Grounding and centering

Meditation

Eyes of a child

We can extract wisdom and knowledge from the nature around us. It is there and serves as a base for us to grow upon. It is a foundation. We all have many different paths and methods to use as tools for our growth, but we can not forget the basics.

Paths to the same place

There are many paths in life. Many of them lead to the same thing. The journey and the road to self discovery is an amazing thing. Yes you can learn from books about the different types of approaches. There are many guides to ritual and approaches out in books as well as teachers who can help guide you. In reality, you only need your awareness. If you want to know about something, or the way to do something, ask. If you want to know about the sun or the trees or the land, then simply ask them. They are great teachers. Humanity is almost the only vocal creatures, so you have to open yourself up to really know. Experience your life. Find different groups, or events, or classes and take them and learn. Listen to your thoughts, your feelings, your breath. Discover the connections that exist in all things. I have enjoyed many books about many subjects. High Magic, earth magick, alchemy, shamanism, philosophy, physics and different sciences, different religions, but they all end up leading me back to my Self and the discovery of my wisdom, knowledge, and truth. There is no right or wrong way to approach life and personal understanding, just allow people to discover their own way. Help if you can, love all you can, make decisions to move along your path. Take your time setting up the groundwork, pick a goal, and learn on the path. If you discover that the goal has changed, or the path is not leading where you want it to go, take a sidestep and build from there.

Ritual is a tool to focus, communicate, understand, and involve yourself in the process. Rituals can be simple, complex, made up, or looked up. Sometimes you learn that others have spent a long time developing a recipe to do a certain thing, sometimes you need to develop the recipe. If you truly understand what it is you will, you may have already done or accomplished it. A ritual may not be necessary, or it must be. It all depends on you.

Just some thoughts.

Blessings in love and harmony,
Bear

We are one in the Spirit.
We are one with the land.
We are one with each other,
As we circle hand in hand.
Together we'll spread the love,
And share it to the end.
For we are one with each other,
And we are one with the land.

We are one in the Spirit,
As we spiral though our lives.
We are sharing love together,
Inner wisdom full and bright.
Connecting we'll center ourselves,
And create a brand new light.
For we are one with each other,
Ever reaching for new heights.

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Science and spirit

I find it very fascinating that the more highly developed our science gets the more it models the science of indigenous cultures and traditional ecological knowledge. The emergence of quantum theories have caused western traditional science to take a step back and look at the whole picture and not just the mathematical and empirical evidence that was the driving force in modern science. Agriculture, medicine and pharmacology have used indigenous science as stepping stones, but now they are trying to walk on their own. They are finding that life, the physical and spiritual have more of an effect than they previously deluded themselves into thinking. Co-creative science and quantum theory make observing and natural relationships actual variables where before they lumped them into a fudge factor that made everything work.

As an Engineer and a spiritual being, I enjoy watching the play unfold that has described the thoughts and ideas formulated in minds since the beginning of rational thought. Our contemplations have been repeated over and over again with many different perspectives. This latest surge is only difference in approach, not of something all that new. We are developing our own cultural science of this time, much like many other cultures have done in the past. We reason and rationalize the world around us. A virtual world and the modern travel conveniences included in our communities and connections have helped to identify that we are just more complex, and our view points have had many influences and not just those of local families and the land. Together we are using the tools that we have developed in modern science to further our understanding which in the past was not always the case. We used to borrow and steal from other cultures and force them into our point of view. Thankfully there have been some efforts to allow different cultures to develop on their own, but many are so influenced that they have made many changes, and so wisdom that had been learned through traditions and testing over many generations is gone and must be rediscovered in a different context and on our own. We must again become the observer and learn through our awareness.

There are many discoveries ahead; we just need to allow ourselves to accept the things that are beyond our grasp in our current understanding. Enjoy the experience of life and take it all in, not just what you get from your senses, but every connection that is who you are.

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

Thoughts

The connections of ecstasy and love & awareness have been growing stronger. The breathing technique for connecting my left and right have helped expand my awareness as well. Healing of my back has been up and down, but I am better than I was before the surgery. I still have to be aware of my limits and not push so hard to be completely healed.

When I lay down, I find myself seeing a shell build up over me. The pattern creates in a spiral, and as pieces to the pattern of a turtle shell. As soon as it is complete to the center the connection from my sternum to the back of my head just opens up and grows like a long tube. The fibers are woven together like the Chinese finger cuffs. They really get locked together. Most of the time I end up being content in that state and don't travel. I should probably get a drumming tape or finish my rattle so that I can take my queues and let go. Perhaps I just need to get a tape recorder or CD recorder and sit and drum for an hour myself. It is tough working alone. I think that may be another hang up that I have. For the longest time I have been having a problem accepting the abilities that I have and allowing myself to do them on my own and without guidance or a teacher. I find myself being the perpetual student and not allowing myself to be the practitioner. I see everything as the learning experience and that is fine, I have had many teachers and that is fine, but I just have that step of doing what it is that I am guided to do and let go of the hang ups that my brain wants to throw in. It is that art of letting go that I see as my next hurdle. By not having a group that I weekly, or monthly just experiment with and let go, I have problems doing myself. Maybe that is more of my hang up, I don't really need anyone. But I find I like the company and support. It is tough only having a virtual spiritual family. Maybe I just need to grab somebody from my tribe and schedule times to do our own things at the same time, separate, but together.

Friday, December 03, 2004

Updates and thoughts

Hi everyone,
I seem to be recovering pretty well after the surgery. I started feeling better very soon afterwards. This week on Monday and Tuesday the pain was so small I almost said I felt great. Yesterday and Today I have been a little sore; I just think that I got so excited about feeling good I did a little too much. I forget to baby myself and feel pressed to pick up the slack that I have given everyone around me. There have been so much happening at work that I find myself just sitting for hours on end and don’t get up and stretch like I am supposed to. The company let someone go this week in my office and I felt bad about it. As a project manager I keep thinking that there should have been more I could have done to help him get his act together, but they said that this was coming and he had so many chances to make it work that they couldn’t do it any more. I liked the guy, but his work ethics did suck. Even though I was away for a week from the office, today the company told me they are very happy with my performance and made me employee of the month. It is nice timing considering next week is my yearly review and bonuses are coming. So who knows, I might get something extra for Yule.

Two days after the surgery I went to one of my friends here who teaches classes on what she calls Tantric Shamanism. I have been having lots of problems grounding and even going into an ecstasy. It felt like I had some connections mixed up and I couldn’t leave my body because it would be attacked if I did and so too much of myself felt like it had to stay behind. Other things also felt like they were wired wrong as well. So together we decided to do some work together for a little while. She help guard me while she drummed and I left to go visit with my helpers and allies who have been neglected lately. When I left, she said that sure enough something pretty nasty tried to get at me, but she said it wasn’t getting into her space and she fended it off until it gave up. While I was there I me up with my old friends who are a purple polar bear, a bumble bee, a raccoon, an eagle, and a few new ones I had never seen before. The new ones I met where an alligator and a turtle. They said they had been around for a very long time, but that I never noticed because all of us others were always moving around and never in one place very long. We had lots of fun talking and they all got lots of hugs and rubs. When I came back I knew that I had been missed and I know that I have to maintain my communication with them. Turtle even said that he wanted to help me even more than he has in the past without me even noticing. He told me that he will come and guard me in his shell while I journey so that nothing can get at me. I had never even thought about turtle magic even though I am a very earthy person and my uncle was apart of a turtle clan in his tribe in Okalahoma. Anyway, I accepted his help and have felt very secure ever since. My friend suggested that I get a little tattoo to secure our bond. My next one was going to be a soul catcher made of purple polar bear heads, perhaps I can put the turtle in as a connector. I would love to have everyone connected together. I will ponder it.

So let me get back to a basic health update. I am sore still in my back where the cuts were made to get at my spine. The pain that was crippling me in my leg and hip are all but gone. There are a few ghost pains that pull and bug me when I am trying to sleep, but for all intents and purposes that pain is gone. I on my way to being back to where I was a year or so ago at least. In about a month, I should be able to begin strengthen my back and begin physically to become more healthy and exercise on a consistent basis. I pulled back from the community after Pagan Pride Day this last fall to try and heal. Now I can start again and dig in again much deeper and perhaps develop some spiritual connections with others in this community. In two weeks I am going to lead a small discussion on practicing a natural religion to a little group. Perhaps later I will teach a small Reiki class. It will be nice to be able to move again. I just have to take my time and let myself heal and not rush it and injure myself more.

I didn’t mean to ramble I, I just started typing.
Thank you for your wonderful thoughts.

In the morning when I wake,
I look around and smile,
The visions that I take,
Relax and begin to compile.
Plug in my feet,
Connect to life again.
Lay into Mother’s field.
At one,
Relief
It has been a long while.
Listen to the breeze,
Hear the voices sing,
Prayers again complete,
I send my love to all.
Soar above, around,
Make that joyful sound,
Smile even more,
Create the next open door.
So high, and so long,
Melt the morning into song.
Flying to that next embrace,
Begin the next step in a life long race.
No end and no beginning,
Never losing, always winning.
At one,
Relief